In true rock and roll style

I'm stting at home alone on saturday night... building fredu's website, watching the princess bride (dubbed in spanish of course) and also watching the eclipse... handy thing is, is that I don't even have to leave my house as the window out to my terrace gives a good view. To be honest it's kind of giving me the creeps... to me it looks blue... the bbc says it should look orange... maybe I'm blinder than I think? I think the thing that freaks me out more is when they keep saying that this will not happen again until 2029... As I've written about before, whenever future dates are mentioned it makes me kind of anxious and I freak out a wee bit... wondering what I'll be doing, where I will be... if I will still be here? Will I have learned anything? How many stupid mistakes did I make? This goes on until it all snowballs into a massive wave of anxiety that can only be calmed by convincing myself that I really don't have much interest in astronomy so really, what's the point in worrying... meanwhile the neurosis continues to spin around the deeper recesses of my brain... but luckly by that point my conciousness decides to make a bowl of popcorn and keep watching the movie... and get back to work.

That's rock and roll baby*...

* No heads were shaved during the writing of this entry... And no re-hab facilities entered.

Grey Grey Grey

That is what today's weather is giving us... my head, grey hair and tomorrow... a meeting at Grey... I hope they have the 100's of back issues of Gratzia that are still being delivered there...


View from my bedroom window (loooks like the slums!!!)


View 2 from my bedroom window (cool old chimney)

I was swimming outside yesterday afternoon and the clock/temp gague just before the gym read 19 degrees. Nice. It's about the same today apparently but because of the grey it's just not as inspiring to gym...

The past week has been very full of some of my most prolfic time wasting... watching back episodes of 2 seasons of the L word. I remember way back when, Dan and I watched the first season giggling along... then quickly fell into dispair when we realised we would have to wait another7 months for the second season to start... well it's been many years now and thanks to you tube I have made up for lost time. I had no idea they were even on season 4... but now i'm all caught up and I must once again wait like everyone else for episode 8 to go up online...

My birthday is once again quickly approaching... 31 this year... I wonder when I'll actually start feeling like a grown up? I was thinking that finding my first grey hair would do that but I'm wondering if like a lot of things they've always been there and I've just never noticed as I dye my hair too often...

I am trying to coax some positive energy into my life by repeating to myself...
something good will happen today... something good will happen today.

I'm still waiting.